What can you say? I am a widow and I hate it. The funeral arrangements have been made and everything has been done. I feel at a loss for want to do. I have been taking care of Keith that it feels very empty to not have anything to do. I expect to hear him calling me to ask for something our say "I'm almost home." Tears come when I least expect them. It is always at a time I don't expect it. It seems that I am now at a loss for words. Nights seem to be the hardest. I turn over and realize that Keith isn't there.
Christopher and I got to spend some time together today. He needed a haircut and then wanted a pretzel from the mall. It was nice just to be together and talk. He laughed at me since I bought a new dress. He said it was the fastest I have ever shopped.
If I don't post much right now, it isn't that I am ignoring anyone. I just need the time to be by myself and that is my nature. Please understand.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Trying to think about what I want to say
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I find the most comfort right now just being alone, and secondly, being with the kids. I think when I'm alone, I just feel like I can feel and act how I want to. When the kids are with me, I feel like I'm needed. I know that sounds bad, but it is how I feel. I am glad you and Christopher could spend time together. My kids are loving having the chance to spend time with me again, but it makes them sad that Brian isn't here. Take one minute at a time. The tears for me came when I least expected it too, and then for a while, it was almost like the tears were stuck, no emotion, just numbness. Take care of yourself. I'll keep checking on you. Just know that I care and I'm praying for you.
Jenni
I totally understand Suzan. My heart and prayers go out to you. There is a big hole in your life now and you've had to put on a new mantle, one that you never chose to wear. Praying for healing and peace. XXOO
Dear Suzan:
I wish I could say something inspiring or comforting or wise but truly can't find a single word that would help.
My mum lost dad in September and having watched that devistation I can only tell you to be kind to yourself, sleep when you can, eat when you can too,
and know that so many people are praying for you and Christopher.
I may not be associated with your church but if you need a Stephen's Minister to talk to just call me and you can lean on me...
I make a great cup of tea and have lots of tissues.
God Bless
Joy
(Sherman Interiors)
Thinking of you at this time, God bless you and the family. What would we do without the loving support of our families...it doesn't bear thinking about. You have been an inspiration to all the unknowns out here Suzan we are all better for having read about you and Keith. In the words of a hymn...Each life that touches us for good, Reflects thine own good mercy, Lord.
Blessings sent your way
Morning Suzan:
I so wanted to come and pay my respects to Keith and you on Sunday but I am out of town.
Please know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers.
God Bless.
Joy
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